Because October is
National Breast Cancer Awareness Month
(NBCAM) even the blogs that aren't about breast cancer are blogging about breast cancer.
My completely unscientific survey of people's attitudes towards NBCAM shows that most people fall into one of four categories. They are either:
(1) Completely unaware of the designation.
(2) Completely neutral about it.
(3) Totally into it.
or
(4) Totally annoyed by it.
(1) and (2) tend to be people with no connection to the disease. Survivors and their loved ones fall somewhere in or between (3) and (4).
And as for me... I have a tale of three Octobers to tell:
October 2005. I went through the month completely oblivious to NBCAM. My journal from that month is filled with the stuff of my "normal" life: the kids' progress report card results, accounts of Halloween parties, the books that I'd been reading, and my everlasting lament that I need to get more organized . The only section that reaches beyond such normalcy is the part about my Aunt Helen. She died during that month, and I wrote about her stay in hospice & my family's vigil for her. I mourned her and I was beside myself that I didn't get to go the funeral. But I had no idea that it was NBCAM.
October 2006. I was seven months out from my diagnosis. I'd had a bilateral mastectomy, four rounds of chemo, and my ovaries removed. I knew darn well that it was NBCAM. But I made seven blog posts that October and never mentioned its existence. I just wasn't ready to deal with it.
October 2007. My life is in high gear. I'm insanely busy, mostly with good things. I've found my "new normal." How do I feel about NBCAM? Right now, I'm a little bit (3) totally into it and a little bit (4) totally annoyed by it. Usually, when people express annoyance about NBCAM they are referring to the commercialization aspect. But what is driving me crazy is that it is so
concentrated.
Every organization out there that is related to breast cancer is having a conference or a fund raiser or a Survivor celebration or all of the above. There are so many activities and invitations compressed into such a short period of time that I've had to decline the opportunity to participate in several events that I'd love to be a part of - and that frustrates me.